Before they fade back in...

Life could have been harder,

We could have been farther,

If only you could hear my heart,

If only you could be

Less than ten steps apart,

Life would have been perfect.

These lines should have been darker,

We should have been farther,

If only I could hear your heart,

And draw those lines darker,

Darker from the start,

We could have been perfect, in every way.

But those ten steps have gone,

And it’s time we take a spin,

And those lines are fading out,

Can we do the dance again?

Before they fade back in.

I have heard your heart, you’ve mine

They won’t add up, and that is fine,

If only, we could push them away,

And make them disappear while I,

Search for reasons to stay.

It could be almost perfect, in every way.

But those ten steps have gone,

And it’s time we take a spin,

And those lines are fading out,

Can we do the dance again?

Before they fade back in.

And as we run back from this world,

In your arms we shall return,

With our hopes to be reclaimed,

For some plain old hurt and pain,

To the world we have known, once again...

Dear dear mirror,
Thou shall not lie,
I shall bury you with the maggots,
And I’m not afraid to try.

Tell me fancy mirror,
Is it good to be the cake?
When the stuffing is one big mess,
And the icing fades away.

Mirror mirror dear,
Does it hurt to keep a scar?
Mind if I hurt you a little,
You’ll still be what you are.

Tell me dear mirror,
Are we faulted at the roots?
Then how come I can’t make things work,
And you’ve still got your blues.

Mirror, darling mirror,
Shall we play your game?
The one in which we take the cards,
And throw them in the flames.

Mirror mirror please,
Don’t you make me cry,
I wasn’t kidding about the maggots,
Lest you don’t reply.

Written on 13th June, 09

Sunshine

I have a thought, my mind and heart is caught,
should i love again, or should i not??
no, thanks a lot,
no, thanks a lot.

My heart is broken coz its had a lot,
should i love again or should i not??

You should not, you would not,
one bad miss, and your heart shall rot,
the old memory is still so hot,
if not the peace, you treasure ,
Be a sign for what you fought,
save your soul,
and love you shall not.

But i miss the joy it once brought
it was water in the endless drought
Those are things that i know i can never sought
should i love again or should i not??

Remind yourself of all the heartburn you forgot
in the summer breeze, like a chill you caught.
Try standing hrs alone, in an empty parking lot
figure out what love gave, what it brought.
Remember what for you gained everything you lost,
then love you shall not, you shall not.

I remember the pain a little, but the joys a lot,
live for what i gained and what i lost i forgot,
the summers are cold and the winters are hot,
with out love in my life, happiness is just a thought.
Should i love again or should i not??
Should i love again,
I shall not.!!
Do love again,
I will not....

by Me and Anuj.
Written 21st March,09.

to sum up, in a lot of words.

Melt in me, and I’ll melt in you,
It crept up on me,
A shadow unknown,
With the verve of a tragedy,
A feeling I’d forgotten
You revived the lore,
I wasn’t quite paying attention,
Until you carved it unto my soul.

Innumerous city nights,
Blinding city lights,
On and off they flicker.
On and off I shiver.
You aren’t the reason
I weep till I sleep
And I don't grieve,
Just so you may be the reason.
I breath on, I bleed on,
And I see your skies.
And the bliss,
Of a love once loved.
Believe me,
It’s amazing to be alive.

The electricity is gone,
It’s just another dark city
A thousand reasons yet none,
Will confine its profanity.
The silence isn’t appealing,
It’s a city I’ve begin to hate,
I’ve been acquainted to it since ever,
Yet my attachment to you fades.

My Pillar of hope,
My angel of faith,
You have wounded my soul,
Why am I filled with hate?
Solace I have lost,
And the irony of it all,
I was cast away,
By my very own.
Frayed and dismayed,
In a world I’d barely known.

I’m struggling to rediscover the life
I’d known as mine once,
To stand upright with the same pride
To laugh like a maniac while you dance.
In this heap of head and feet,
Wishing this time its happiness I meet
A little humbled, a little wiser,
I am ready to live again,
Not entirely in a blur, now
But in a full blown picture.

I sound desperate don’t I!
Magnificent it seems.
I’ve Read it out as a fact.
In simple lines,
Easy to be understood
Life couldn't have been simpler than that.

May 24th, 2009

Like you are......

They are, I am,
And you are, you are.....
Between me and us
You are...
The star of a dream,
You are, you are.
In a reality beyond reasoning,
You are...
In the pictures on the walls,
You are, you are.
In the colors of my reflection,
You are....

The haze of sunrise,
You are, you are.
The blur of shadows,
You are...
The rhyme of a song,
You are, you are.
The song of a child,
You are.
The ink on paper,
You are, you are.
The joy in the words,
You are.
The blessings in his grace,
You are, you are.
The smile on my face,
You are.......

When furious waves crash,
You are, you are.
On The infinite stretch of sand,
You are...
My fear of drowning,
You are, you are.
The water seeping through my toes,
You are...
My chance of a lifetime,
You are, you are.
A chance to die,
You are....

The crowd on the streets,
You are, you are.
The faces in the crowd,
You are.
The chaos of this city,
You are, you are.
The silence that we chose,
You are.
Scattered books, coffee mugs,
You are, you are.
My confusion to put words together,
You are...

Broken lights, empty roads,
You are, you are.
An echo in the corridor,
You are.
Hours at the metro station,
You are, you are.
A bill from a date,
You are.....

Hungry all the time,
You are, you are.
Impatience on an empty stomach,
You are.
An aimless walk around cp,
You are, you are.
So hard to resist,
Oh you are..
A trip on the bus,
You are, you are.
A stranger I finally met,
You are....

A blinking cursor on my screen,
You are, you are.
The lines I am yet to write,
You are.
The nights I cried to sleep,
You are, you are.
The hurt of a rejection,
You are.....

When I am lost and afraid,
You are, you are.
My strength, my shadow,
You are.
Like a light on my beacon,
You are, you are.
The end of this trail,
You are.
Still my favourite for the day,
You are, you are.
My happiness, my home,...You are......

Dreams....

So.... should I write about dreams.....’

I think I possibly dream every night......every night I enter a world that happens to be a creation of my sub conscious....breaking over the norms of smaller worlds into bigger ones.... it cuts over some of the elements of reality into the illusion..... and suddenly I know I am sure I know its real......almost real.....i just donno the people who are living it....

Through me....

Some of my dreams keep persistently following me... one of them is ....

I have some kinda misty wind following me...... therez nothing too scary about it except for the fact that it is chilly........

Cold... as if someone has sucked life outta it..... Life... ;) I never thought it was alive....but im sure I wanted it to be...... so yeah..... this wind.... every time it comes near , I feel as if someone has put the nozzle of the vacuum cleaner on my head...and is sucking out all the happiness outta me.....leaving me with only dread, screams in my head....and a churning kinda sensation in my stomach...... twisting and writhing around on the floor... in agony.... I pick myself up... the voices screaming in my head, the scream of death...

I run ...i run randomly.....the mist, she laughs at me.....a devilish laugh....

Having fun seeing me this way, eh?

Hmmm......so I run....slowly picking up speed.....i turn over my shoulder and sneak a quick glance at her, sheez gaining in on me... I don’t think I have a chance tonight.... it’s a dark dark sky..... no clouds...... no stars......the moon alone.... a full moon..... is everyone hiding behind him.....are they scared .?..too scared to see what may happen....?

I run as far as my legs can take me....im shorta breathe.....im taking in long breathes.....coming in wheezes.....(probably my head is buried in d pillow again and im strangling my self with it...)......hell!....someone please help me...... this whole running sequence has been happenin too often now.....

Suddenly I come to a stop....i have 2 literally drag my feet on d ground to top me from skidding ....to steps from a very very deep ravine.....

At the edge of a cliff I stand....well the never ending pit on one side of me.... the snooty life –sucking bitch on the other..... and I m stuck in between....as in every other time I have had this dream.....im standing and standing......the valley down below is dark.... and I think I can hear gushing water......

And this silly wind is blowing into my ears......

Stone and water....water and stone....
Bone and laughter.... darkness shone...
On the blood red stone..... and the green water....
This icy throne calls you
Touch my hand ...touch my flame..
Bring your kin...soft and tender
Join me in eternal slumber.....
Play this game...and I’ll save you from shame....