Everybody loves love songs…. I aint no different…I love love songs too….its just that too much of lovey dovey things make me uncomfortable….like a lot of others…
One of my favourites is ‘only time’ by Enya…listen carefully…it doesn’t sound like one…but the song is a real charmer…the best part about it is …it revolves around uncertainity….which is like a dark cloudy day....no sunshine,but it doesn’t rain....stuck in a no-god’s land..….. would I be alive tomorrow….? Would you be dead tomorrow?.....’Gosh man!...how would I know…!’…....
I wonder though….if life could be a lil’ more definite, that I could blindly shoot an arrow in the dark and yet open my eyes to find it right where I wanted......
I wish it could have been a lil’ more simple.... so I wouldn’t have to worry about doing this right....doing that wrong....
And I wish you were part of this imperfect existence of mine....everyday would not be a war that I fight with myself......every love song wouldn’t cause a heartbreak...every time I look at the sky, I wouldn’t see myself, as alone amongst the numerous lonelies out there.....the ones that twinkle at nite...sending SOS signals to their heartbeats.....
‘save our souls’ they cry in unison....
together by the burden they carry.....
somber in the fire that burns.....
broken by a spell as black.....
a tragedy that fate hath churned.....
I know I love you....but alas...its not meant to be....this unfathomable love of mine has been forbidden by those who preach of it.....
Let me help you....lemme help us make the best of it......you’ve heard them....it’s against their will....what can a hopeless broken soul like me wish for....lemme wish for thee....Raised eyebrows...!.thats all you’ve got...!?....huh......Say something....anything but silence....this silence is killing me.....
Someday rather than remembering the words you did say,you’ll be haunted by the murky shadows of the words that you could have said ...but you didn’t.......why didn’t you sugar......i am here....i am still here.......
I won’t be there for you, every time......may not remember 2 wish u on all ur b’days, may not pick up ur calls...i may change my number and nt tell you.....not reply to your mails....i might even forego the invitation to your wedding......if that happens , ever...it was not because I lost hope baby ....but because I found it easier...to let go of you...us....and everything that ever could have have brought us home... ...
Standing at the edge of a cliff...i am screaming...letting out my anguish...lighter and lighter I feel.......light as the breeze itself.....and as realistically unreal....
as my forbidden love........
